As midnight draws closer on New Years Eve and as people frantically start to search for someone to kiss, I’d be prepared to bet that more than a few of us will be experiencing a moment of panic as we reflect upon 2018.
I mean, what even was that?
An overview; Harry and Megan got married, Black Panther was finally released and made a bucket load of money, Banksy shredded a painting right after it was sold, the Kardashian clan sprogged out a few more kids, and the UK welcomed the President by depicting his likeness in a ridiculously large and ridiculously orange, baby-shaped balloon .
A lot happened. And that can be overwhelming. It’s the age of social media! Everyone constantly posts their newest accomplishments online, and if you don’t have anything much to post it can make you feel….well, a bit shit really.
The truth is that far too often in life we tend to focus on what we didn’t do, rather than what we did.
I know I’m guilty of this. The first few months of this year had me recovering from surgery, struggling to walk and learning to cope with my stoma. The few months after that were a slow and painful walk to freedom, I started working again, seeing friends again and essentially started saving money so that I wouldn’t be broke as balls for Christmas. Six months, gone *snap* just like that…
This year my husband and I didn’t get a chance to travel abroad the way we normally do, and we didn’t move house like we’d planned. I didn’t finish my degree, or get a book published.
But do you know what I did do? I had half my ‘effin colon removed and went back to work like a bad ass bitch. I passed my second module of my degree and went straight on to starting my third. I finished my first and second draft of my novel. I started eating food again and it. was. glorious.
My husband and I have had a tough year. But the fact is I am super bloody proud of us. Although we haven’t “achieved” much, we’ve made steps towards getting what we want. So what if we haven’t reached the end of the road yet?
2018 has been a weird one, so much has happened and yet on paper, it looks like barely anything at all. But maybe that’s okay.
Maybe it’s okay to have goals and not reach them straight away.
For this New Years I’m going to make a resolution to keep to the path and not be deterred when I found out that it’s a long, long walk.
And then for New Years 2019, I’ll make the same damn resolution all over again.
I guess what I’m saying is that we, as people, shouldn’t feel guilty if we haven’t accomplished much this year. A year is, in actual fact, a very short amount of time. And we have dozen of them ahead of us! Dozens of years in which to climb that mountain, get that job, write that book, find that person, defeat that dragon and eventually become the people we want to be.
So in 2019 I encourage you to make steps, nothing more and nothing less.
We got this sweet things!
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!